{"id":150,"date":"2012-05-24T07:47:56","date_gmt":"2012-05-24T14:47:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.littlebrowne.com\/?p=150"},"modified":"2012-05-24T07:47:56","modified_gmt":"2012-05-24T14:47:56","slug":"a-father-to-be-where-is-the-connection","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.threeadventure.com\/littlebrowne\/2012\/05\/24\/a-father-to-be-where-is-the-connection\/","title":{"rendered":"A Father To Be: Where is the Connection?"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I\u2019m sure it\u2019s different for each father to be but I\u2019m often curious about when the connection to little unborn tiny baby starts for the proud papa. In my current experience, I feel like I have this connection but I can\u2019t imagine it\u2019s anything like what Annie is feeling and experiencing.<\/p>\n

When I first saw fingers and toes in an unltrasound picture that made the whole thing feel real to me and since Annie has started showing I know it\u2019s because there\u2019s a real baby growing in there\u2026not from all the Twinkies and Doritos tacos from Taco Bell that she\u2019s been eating (kidding\u2026Annie eats WAY healthy). But for Annie she already has the physical feelings and hormonal changes that allow her to start having real connections with Little Browne\u2026she\u2019s already feeding this baby, protecting it, carrying it, and feeling it swim around in there; but I don\u2019t have those things.<\/p>\n

Jealous Father Much?<\/h3>\n

To be completely truthful I\u2019m not jealous at all, Annie and I are going through this experience together but we\u2019re having two completely different experiences. I talk to the baby from time to time although it still seems weird\u2026not really sure what to talk about. I mean, do I try to get him to understand why I am a Dodger and Giants fan? Do I explain that Joe Montana is the best quarterback of all time? Do I encourage his quick rise to a position of wealth so I can retire? I\u2019m not sure.<\/p>\n

So as the days and weeks tick by I wait patiently out here for this little guy to finish building himself with mom\u2019s help. I\u2019m okay with waiting for a real connection to this baby\u2026since I have to wait in line there\u2019s nobody I\u2019d rather wait in line behind than Annie. Even with all the added \u201chigh risk\u201d crap (I almost feel like it\u2019s tattooed on our foreheads) she\u2019s been amazing\u2026working out 4 days a week, eating healthy, playing music for the baby and explaining to him why she thinks Led Zeppelin is the greatest band of all time, holding her belly to let him know that she\u2019s right outside, and working to maintain a stress-free zone.<\/p>\n

I know it sounds dumb\u2026and obvious, but I\u2019m glad Annie and Little Browne are together 24\/7. It comforts me to know that they have each other and they\u2019re doing their thing\u2026so no, I\u2019m not jealous\u2026I\u2019m in awe of watching this develop and seeing Annie change both physically and mentally. My connection will come in due time\u2026it\u2019s not always about me even though I wish it could be. So for now I will be patient and let the two of them build that bond and do whatever I can to nurture it\u2026but Little Browne will like the Dodgers too, even though Annie doesn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

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