Sure, I eat a lot of veggies and lean proteins and I workout 4-5 days a week but there’s a lot that I’m doing/not doing that I’ve had a hard time admitting to, so here goes, I’m laying it all out there for you and me.
– I snack too much
– I drink too much
– I cheat on my agreements with myself regarding food, level of effort, etc.
– I don’t get enough good sleep
– I’m not honest with myself (therefore with others) about my health
So, why am I doing this? Why am I laying it all out for all to see? Because I’m tired of not feeling great. I’m tired of how I feel about my body. I’m tired of seeing myself in the mirror on the way to the shower and thinking “hmmm…what happened?”. But most of all, I’m tired of making agreements with myself, negotiating with my conscience, and sick and tired of waiting. I know what to do, I know how to do it, I’ve just lost myself along the way in remembering TO JUST DO IT.
I’m the only one that can change this. I’m the only one that can make me feel good about me. I’m the only one that is driving this ship and damnit, I’m taking the wheel back! I’ve been on auto-pilot for too long and this shit has got to stop. I’m not getting any younger, I’m not getting any prettier or any smarter, but what I am getting is pissed off.
I’m pissed at myself for treating my body the way I have been. I’m pissed that I have let myself blame things like being too busy, too tired, or too stressed to take better care of myself. I’m pissed that I’ve wasted so much time coming up with excuses. Oh yeah, and I’m also pissed that I’ve blamed my body for failing me, when I’m the one who has made the choices and decisions that have gotten me to where I am this very minute.
Okay…enough complaining and bad self-talk. What am I gonna do about it? I have choices and they are as follows:
– Keep doing what I’m doing and figure out a way to “get happy” about it.
– Make another agreement, plan, negotiation and see what happens.
I’m going with the third option. I have this one life, this one healthy body, and I have the ability to make the absolute best of every moment and every choice. What’s different about now than any other time in my life? I’m not really sure how to put it into words, but this is IT. I’ve been there, I know how it feels to feel GOOD, physically, emotionally, spiritually and I’ve allowed myself to get lost. No longer. I am taking responsibility and accountability for my own well being and nobody can take that away from me…not even me, this time.
Now that I’ve made this huge proclamation, what does it actually mean in reality? It means that I need to come up with a plan. I need to be brutally honest with myself and set realistic goals for where I want to be. Then I need to educate myself about my exercise and nutrition and evaluate what I need to do to attain my goals. Then, most importantly, I need to DO it. That’s it.
So, next comes the life audit. The get down and dirty about what I’ve been doing that doesn’t and why. Honest with myself about what I really want, and then make a specific plan about how to get there. What do you think…are you happy???
Stay tuned, join me on this journey and let’s GET HAPPY!!!