Since we found out I was pregnant in January, I’ve been writing down my thoughts about the whole thing along the way. I wanted to share these thoughts with you, even though they’re a little out of order…we’re going back in time! As of today, we’re just past 17 weeks, but I wrote this the day we found out we were pregnant, January 17, 2012:
Day One, Positive Test, We’re Pregnant.
Our first go at getting pregnant was a learning experience at the very least. We’d only been “trying” for a few months when we came up positive. There was a whole flood of unfamiliar emotions, running the gamut from elated to scared and every where in between! Unfortunately, we miscarried at about 7 weeks which brought on a whole other set of new emotions, as I’m sure you can imagine. What we came out of that whole experience with were a few things; we knew we wanted to try again, and we knew we were in this thing together for the long haul!
So this time around, we decided to actually apply ourselves and try again. We did a little calculating, studied up on how the whole thing actually works and went for it! What do you know…we’re pregnant again within a month of the miscarriage. Pretty cool!
This time around the emotions are different, well maybe not different but a little more familiar. And we have an idea of what we might be in for this time. There’s so much involved with this pregnant thing that I never really realized or paid attention to. There’s the doctor visits, labs, blood work, ultrasounds, flu shots, exams, waivers, blah blah blah. And then there’s all the telling or not telling. Last time around we told the whole world right away because we were so excited, then we had to un-tell the whole world which pretty much sucked, but we got a lot of great support and love. I guess we’ll figure all that out as we go this time, but we’ll definitely be a little more cautious about the broadcasting in the beginning.
So, yeah, it’s different this time. I can’t quite explain it…we’re more at ease with the whole thing; not as freaked out. As morbid or negative or whatever this may sound, I think it was good for us to go through a miscarriage. It helped us put things into perspective and kind of get our heads on straight about being pregnant. Now the challenge will be to patiently wait and nurture the new little soul that’s growing inside of me. Here we go!!!