As most of you know today, 10-11-12, is our last full day of being pregnant. And as most of you know it’s not me that’s actually pregnant it’s Annie…that’s just how science works folks. That being said, Annie and I are going through a lot of thoughts, emotions, and feelings…and I will speak for myself here…I’m struggling to gather my thoughts.
I’m a reflective guy anyway but this magnifies it so much. I think about this from every angle and therefore the attached emotions come from every angle. I think about my childhood and how I hope his will be. I think about my Papa that passed away in 1996 and Annie’s Grandpa that passed away last year at 101 years old. I think about legacy. I think about holding my son and wondering what he’ll teach me. I think about how I’ve wanted this since I was 20 years old. I think about how insanely fortunate, lucky, and potentially undeserving I am to have someone like Annie to be my son’s mother. I think about how my son does not have any idea yet how lucky he is to have her as his mother.
I think about all the roads I’ve traveled and paths I’ve crossed to get to this point right here and right now. I think about how much this little guy will depend on me. I think about trying to live up to that. I think about the astonishingly magnificent group of family, local friends, and online friends that I have and how they make me tear up when they come together as a community to support Annie, myself, and our son.
I will be 36 years old in November and the best day of my life thus far was my wedding day with Annie. Now I imagine tomorrow and meeting my son for the very first time…and for the life of me it defies description right now.
Thank you to everyone that has been so supportive through our miscarriage and now this pregnancy. Thank you does not seem like enough…many of you have become part of our family and it has been amazing. I can’t wait for Little Browne to meet you guys. And to Annie, as you know, I think you’re amazing and I can’t wait to share this experience with you tomorrow…our adventure continues with a new member on our team and it has been an absolute privilege and pleasure…cheers to the future!