Itâ??s been roughly ten months of me working from home with the rug rat while Annie goes off to work four days per week. I still have a painting company but my main gig is being online at homeâ?¦which is why this whole thing worked out to begin with. There would be no way for me to have Sammy at painting job sites all the time.
Here are some things Iâ??ve learned:
Iâ??ve learned that I have more patience than I EVER would have expectedâ?¦but I have a long way to go.
Iâ??ve learned that itâ??s a very busy job, being at home with kids that is. Having to work and make money on top of that is a lot of pressure. Itâ??s all about extreme organization and great time managementâ?¦neither of which I possess.
Iâ??ve learned how easy it is to love your kid. That part requires no work at all.
Iâ??ve learned that diapers suck really bad but they are totally doable 99% of the time. There is the 1% and I canâ??t even get in to that.
Iâ??ve learned that I am harder on myself than I thought.
Iâ??ve learned that when the kid is awake I get anywhere from 5 minute blocks to an occasional 20 minute block of time to get work done on my computer. Thatâ??s tough for me because it takes me a while to get focused in so constant interruptions suckâ?¦but you play casino blackjack online do what you gotta do.
Iâ??ve learned that our choice to have one child is the smartest choice weâ??ve ever made.
Iâ??ve learned that I lose myself a lot more than I used to. Prior to Sammy I would lose myself to getting stuck in ruts sometimes or in my depression but now I have to deal with creating time for me to zen out. I am home with Sammy four days per week but Iâ??m almost always home even when Annie is home tooâ?¦so I never get the break away from the mini me.
Iâ??ve learned that Iâ??m getting older and some days that scares me because I donâ??t feel like I am anywhere near accomplishing whatever it is I want to accomplish. I want to do something impressive. I donâ??t want to leave until I know Iâ??ve done something significant.
Iâ??ve learned that sometimes I just need to turn everything off and just hold my son.
Itâ??s a strange journey. Heâ??s almost 16 months old and the one word I still use to describe this journey more than any other is surreal.
I know Iâ??m doing some things really well and other things not so much. All I know to do is keep marching on until I canâ??t march anymore. All I know to do is keep waking up each new morning with the goal of being better than I was the day before. Lifeâ?¦so it goes.